I have been struggling with those hopeless feelings every day, so you are not alone with those types of feelings, and I completely understand where you are coming from when you say that your are tired of all surgeries and the pain, I completely understand that, its something I deal with every day. I have had a lot of experience when it deals with depression and anxiety, I have been struggling with depression since I was fourteen years old when my father passed away at fifty five due to cancer, and I know depression can feel like a never-ending long day.

I was 21 when I started to develop those hopeless and helpless feelings when I started to have female pain, it felt like I was going to be stuck in a never-ending game of pain and that no one will help me and I won't get the surgery (I still have those feelings, btw), so a friend suggested what I thought at the time was impossible, getting a dog. So I went to a local shelter, then I turned to see a reddish-brown and white dog named Ruby sitting in the cage, with large puppy eyes staring back at me, so I brought her home. She was the dog I needed in my life, without any sort of training, this dog connected with me, and she just 'knew' whenever I get upset or if the pain gets too strong, and I am serious when I say, that dog saved my life, if she wasn't here, I wouldn't know what would happen.

I have had all sorts of different treatments for the depression and anxiety, I am very knowledgeable about this because I had lots, lots of therapy. I agree with @A MyEndometriosisTeam Member in the fact that you have to tell your doctor about what you are feeling, he could give your resources and referrals to people that can help you, and I also think talking to the therapist is a great idea, I have found when even when I talk to someone about my feelings. I also have lots of experience with something called CBT (short for cognitive behavior therapy), which is a way for you to look at the negative thoughts in your head and how your behavior is effected after those thoughts, and CBT helps your recognize these thoughts and behaviors so you can start to challenge those thoughts with a more positive way. I looked online to see that there are multiple resources online that can help you connect to some of the worksheets online that will help you start challenging those thoughts, it might take time, but I find it highly effective.

I hope this offers you resources and ideas to help you, I just shared what I found helpful for me, but it might be different for you because we are all different, and I am so sorry to hear you are struggling and going through a difficult time, but it will get better in time but you have to speak up now to your doctor, he can help you.

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So sorry to hear that. I think in the first instance you should speak to your doctor as soon as possible if you havent already, they will be able to go through options with you and help you decide which would be best for you... whether that is for example medication or talking therapy if you prefer to go down the natural route (there may be other options too)
You sound like you have been through a lot and are still going through a lot with your gyn issues so it is not suprising that you are not feeling great, you must be very, very strong to have had all those surgeries etc so im sure you will get through this.
Im always here if you want to chat.
I hope you start to feel a little bit better very soon x